Not My Will But God's Will

From where come wars and fightings among you? come they not here, even of your lusts that war in your members? Do you think that the scripture said in vain, The spirit that dwells in us lusts to envy?
But he gives more grace. Wherefore he said, God resist the proud, but gives grace unto the humble. Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double minded. Be afflicted, and mourn, and weep: let your laughter be turned to mourning, and your joy to heaviness. Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up. A lot of our problems come from ourselves, when we don't like something, it first starts with us, and then it goes out to the world. I seen that I didn't want to be a preacher or a minister, I wanted to be just a virtuous woman, but this is not true.  This is the battle that is going on inside of me that I don't want to be something that God has meant me to be, being a virtuous woman is not the problem, but being a minister of the gospel is the problem with me.  This is a problem from within, and I must conquer it by submitting to God's will.  I love the boldness and what God is saying through me but I don't like that he uses me, why does he want to use a woman, I would say. This is the scripture that comes to mind "God has chosen the foolish things of this world to confound the things which are wise in this world..", this is for me not anyone else to realize that he has chosen me for his glory and then I would become happy but then I would become sad because it doesn't make sense. Maybe it doesn't make sense because I thought I had my sons so they can be the preachers but that is not what God was doing, that was what I thought to hand it down to them.  One of my sons used to say "don't give me those hand-it-downs", meaning clothes. But who do I think I am anyway to think I can hand anything like a gift or anointing to another, that is God's business not mine to give it to me in the first place, And he doesn't change his mind nor repent from blessing me with his anointing, Praise the Lord!!, I can't fight with God, let his will be done!! The problem is now solved because God's will is my will in and for my life, now I have peace with God through my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. amen. Thanks for listening.

James 4:1-10

Where Are Those Your Accusers?

For men shall be lovers of their own selves..false accusers,..;And they which heard it, being convicted by their own conscience, went out one by one, beginning at the eldest, even unto the last: and Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst. When Jesus had lifted up himself, and saw none but the woman, he said unto her, Woman, where are those your accusers? have no man condemned you? She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn you: go, and sin no more. And I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, Now is come salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of his Christ: for the accuser of our brethren is cast down, which accused them before our God day and night. And there shall be no night there; and they need no candle, neither light of the sun; for the Lord God gives them light: and they shall reign for ever and ever. I had no night, I stay up for days all through the night, sleeping in the day-time, and God gave me light. Because it was the devil in the middle of the night accusing me about everything because I was in that high place with the Lord and now there is no accuser to accuse me falsely,  Oh! How precious is the flow that makes me white as snow there's no other fount I know nothing but the blood of Jesus. Amazing grace how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me...., The cleansing stream I see, I see, I plunge and Oh it cleanseth me, Oh Praise the Lord, It cleanseth me, yes cleanseth me, yes cleanseth me. I rise to walk in heaven's own light above the world of sin, with heart made pure and garment white and Christ enthroned within.  The cleanses stream I see I see, I plunge and Oh it cleanseth me, Oh Praise the Lord, It cleanseth me, yes cleanseth me, yes cleanseth me. amen. If you confess your sins, God is faithful and just to forgive you your sins and to cleanse you from all the unrighteousness, if you say that you have no sin you deceive yourself and God's word is not in you. amen.

The Lord Heard I Was Hated

Because the LORD has heard I was hated, he has therefore given me this son also: For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counselor, The Mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace. For in him dwells all the fullness of the Godhead bodily. And I am complete in him, which is the head of all principality and power: The Father loves the Son, and have given all things into his hand. For as the Father has life in himself; so have he given to the Son to have life in himself; And have given him authority to execute judgment also, because he is the Son of man. And this is the record, that God has given to me eternal life, and this life is in his Son. And we know that the Son of God comes, and have given us an understanding, that we may know him that is true, and we are in him that is true, even in his Son Jesus Christ. This is the true God and eternal life. And I said, My heart rejoices in the Lord, mine horn is exalted in the Lord: my mouth is enlarged over mine enemies; because I rejoice in my God's salvation. Now I can speak boldly as I ought to speak with no fear because the Lord God is behind me one hundred percent.

For I will give you a mouth and wisdom, which all your adversaries shall not be able to gainsay nor resist.

Luke 21:15

I Was And Am Hated

Through generations you will see God blessed his people that was hated without cause Jesus is the forerunner, Joseph, David, Daniel, etc. he always exalted them. This was Christ manifested in them. I was hated and now am hated and my children without cause, seven years ago I and my children was cast out of a household and they put their sins on us, and now I know that Christ has been there with me and is truly with me and my children today. How can you say you love the Father God and hate his children or his people? I lived in this hate all my life like the blind man, not knowing what was going on, but knowing you are hated, until the Lord called me to himself. I was preaching but no one was listening until they cast me and my children out. The healed of being blind man answered and said unto them, Why herein is a marvelous thing, that you know not from whence he is, and yet he have opened mine eyes. Now we know that God hears not sinners: but if any man be a worshiper of God, and does his will, him he hears. Since the world began was it not heard that any man opened the eyes of one that was born blind. If this man were not of God, he could do nothing. They answered and said unto him, You was altogether born in sins, and do you teach us? And they cast him out. Jesus heard that they had cast him out; and when he had found him, he said unto him, Do you believe on the Son of God? He answered and said, Who is he, Lord, that I might believe on him? And Jesus said unto him, You have both seen him, and it is he that talks with you. And he said, Lord, I believe. And he worshiped him. And Jesus said, For judgment I am come into this world, that they which see not might see; and that they which see might be made blind. And some of the Pharisees which were with him heard these words, and said unto him, Are we blind also? Jesus said unto them, If you were blind, you should have no sin: but now you say, We see; therefore your sin remains. They cast me out, and it was meant that they cast me out, that I might be exalted in Christ. But love you your enemies, and do good, and lend, hoping for nothing again; and your reward shall be great, and you shall be the children of the Highest: for he is kind unto the unthankful and to the evil. Be you therefore merciful, as your Father also is merciful. Woe unto you, when all men shall speak well of you! for so did their fathers to the false prophets. But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you, Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you. For these things are truly forgiveness. Amen.